Sad Organ Gender

you wake up 04:00 am

you woke up from a dream

you dreamt about someone

from a while ago

they forgot about you

you lie here remembering them

you feel a bit insignificant and cry

you walk to the bathroom

you start thinking about what could be

you start dreaming about something else

you look into the mirror

looking at your bare chest

noticing everything

you feel grossed out

you start feeling ill

you don't see yourself in the mirror

everything starts too swirl

you look down at your hands

everything is slipping through your hands

you can't move

you lose control of your limbs

you limbs cave in

you fall on the bathroom floor

bent and broken

limbs contorting

i fall down deeper and deeper

limbs start lacerating

you feel immense uncomfort

you float away from your body

you see yourself and feel a bit sick

you gain strength

you start carving

a big hole, the rim is covered

you can see up into your chest

through the hole

it's completely empty

you can see the walls

your hands are shaking

you wake up 04:13 a.m.

you lay on the bathroom floor