12/26/2021 (B)

and im always so jealous of the people outside because they get to spend their time and life doing things they enjoy while i UNIRONICALLY spend my life in a basement (Other then when i have to go to work lol)

and i could care less about having some professional iimage, how should i know how to professionally present myself to others when i dont even know myself?

and i feel like shit all the time too man im sick of it man i just wanna feel better i dont wanna be depressed or alone in this fucking basement anymore man why do i feel this way why do i feel like this why am i this person man

and i cant even record that long here cuz my family keeps fightin n shit so i have to keep stopping the recording and starting a new one or some shit (also the taste of blood is in my mouth FOR NO FUCKIN REASON lol)